In Good Company

YES... the movie was for every KIDult ..for every ADULT-escent out there... It was my movie... I liked it ...No i enjoyed it... Why coz i had this conversation with elke earlier in the day .. and we were talking abt this certain thing that we were talking abt ... my predicament ... or let's say this certain juxtaposition that i'm in ... it was as though the silver screen was playing it out to me... like i told her... the yr has engaged in some kinda re-wiring my inner circuitry ... where by im turning into this sap ... this uber-romantic of some kind... It's probably got something to with being on the planet for almost a quarter century now... well let's just say there's this agenda i've .. the Tony Montana philosophy of life has three stages... "In this country, first jou get the money, then jou get the power, then jou get the women."

In my lil domain .. in my narrow scope of reality .. the slice of life that i have gotta deal with ... well i'm working on it ... i've got pseudo-power ..that's power in terms of a title.. with no monetary kick backs.. but to get the positive aspect outta it let's just for arguement's sake say i've conquered the power domain ... and now it's the other two domain's that are left... money is over-rated.. in terms of monetary value pieces of ppr shouldn't dictate our lives... but it's the purchasing power of those pieces of ppr that dictate the course of our lives.. the direction ..the pursuit to those desires .. humm... vanity does play a part ... but none the less... it's when money is spent on the ones that we love that it turns into a beautiful thing... (i told u i'm romantizing even money).... well... yeah.. any way money... will come ..or it 'll go .. it isnt substanial how much we make or much we need... it's abt the good times at the end of it all.. that's what we live for ... and i'm pretty sure i've got it in me to take it all the way... now that leave's the final frontier... ok .... this is an open confession ... i think... or let me say i suppose i think i've an idea ...for somebody i want to spend the rest of my life with... have i asked this person ... NO!!! do i intend to tell this person any time soon ... NO!!! am i romancing this dream a lot ... YES!!! will it work out ..maybe... when do i intend all my loved ones to know abt it... 5 yrs from now... that's right FIVE years from now!! that's right... all decisions come 5 yrs from now... but there has to be some kind of pro-active participation in the involvement of a cpl or something of the sort .. i do agree... but i'm not ready... it's just a euphoric idea.. a concept that i'll be incubating till the time is right.... when will it be right.. I dont know... kinda silly.. aint I? yeah ..silly is what silly does... well any way ... like i said .. i'm this kidult.. who's not sure .. who's not yet ready... if relativity were a reality ... i could have engaged in a more pro-active approach... but it isnt.. and i carry on... will i tell any one ... any time soon.. i dont know... well i love it the way it is as of now... Amen..