SiLK BOxERS

I feel great today.. Why because i feel i have been able to contribute to a better human life.. how well..let's look at it this way... you look back at your life and see your self in this particular period of time and see and feel or wished how perhaps things could have been better .. if only someone was there to look out for you.. someone was there to watch out for you .. i mean we've all at some point of time wanted it .. atleast i have.. since i've this unending need/desire/thirst that i cannot quench to empathise with ppl ..put myself in their shoes ... i guess it's my working strategy... put urself in the other persons shoes kinda thing.. see what they'd want ..they'd like done..any way to quit the rambling and to get specific...

Today January the 17th, 2005... happens to be Tina's birthday... she turns 17... WoW!!! a millennium ago i used to be 17... and in some odd way she reminds me of me... away from home ... in the middle of no where in a totally new place... with absolute strangers around you... with none of the comforts of home ...and further more unlike any of the other 16 birthdays you've had on the planet ..this one will be for the very first time that u are away from everything that was familiar to u.... kinda strangely odd... for the fragile mind of a 17 ... how did i feel abt it... i was for one not happiest ppl on my 17th... i was bitching and whining and complaining and oh jesus all that rage ...must have been the testostreone going bonkers... well... as i look at it... if there was any way i could make this kid's b'day any better than the one i had eons ago... being in the very same shoes she was in ... i had a handle of things .. but since it's me things have to have that extra bit of shall we say life's way of saying lemme see u get past that......the geographical disposition was going to be a setback ....

so thanks to that wonderful invention - the digital dog leash aka the MOBILE...i got in touch with a friend of mine... another acquaintance from when i was in those late teens ... we did a lil bit of growing up together shall we say... and i might add learnt quite a few life lessons from each other... saw some real nasty shit.. went thru stuff that moulded us into who we are today ... it must have the intensity of human emotions we shared together that a single cellphone conversation got him to set aside time for lil ol'me off his busy schedule...

and how does this grand plan of mine come to life.. i ask Deepak ... to go in search of the perfect gift ... well ... since i had this vague kinda idea that she might appreciate a CD ... being an Eminem fan in her haydays.. i honestly didnt know her present musical disposition as of today but only went with a gut feeling she might appreciate the idea behind it ...

why am i punching this all down.. i guess .. i'm putting some vanquished souls to rest...it's not demons .. it's this 17 yr old in me that needs to be heard ... that needs to live again..that needs to come to terms with life ...to be able to bring to rest that 17 yr old.. and move on ... that's what it's all abt.. and since it's a self less act that in all intentions is intended to mean more to her than it does to me .. it will in turn mean more to me...

well back to the actual happenings ... i sent deepak on an errand to get T a gift ..which i hear he was able to get her in time... and he tells me... talking to her reminded him of me.... see it's all abt that teenager we once were....and how we first met...uncanny as it may seem... and i guess being around em ...kinda sends u reliving it ..and puts that zest back in life... but the second time around ..u have that know-how of the boo-boos that happen the first time round.. so now the predicament is all abt do u wanna be a spoil sport and give em the parental NO! or the enjoy life u live it just once... right now i'm trying to be on both the boats.. it's a nehruvian dream of the mixed economy thing...the best of both worlds.. but we all know what happens is the kinda the opposite.. let's not side track here...

the point of the matter is... i'm offically calling `05 the year of love...the giving kind... i wanna be around ..in spirit in person .. a phone call ... an email... i have a lotta inner wounds that need healing... and i guess true human interaction with the ppl u love might be the only way to heal em... once again ...thank you life for giving me another chance...thank you friends for showing me what it means to be around.... thank you from the bottom of my heart....

the inner peace n tranquility i feel.... to put into persepective... you might just metamorphasize in to matter... Imagine ... every man on the planet wearing Silk Boxers.... that's how divine it feels.....the pure symphony of SILK BOxERS!!!